Brownstone - Grapevyne

We Choose to play love games, we lose and face the pain. Lonely nights and brokenhearted just a few it seems.
I've shared with you my dreams & some precious tender things, Everybody plays "the fool" I guess I played my part for you.
Ya, see old boy/girl/myself, looking into my eyes it didn't bother you telling me lies, like you would never cheat on me or break my heart.
Inside I never knew that love could be so unTrue thought that I was your only, dang was I wrong for so long?
See, you had my faith, trust even my love.
However, I've had to take it back it didn't work for us.
How could you do me wrong or compromise?
Never do something that you'll live to regret like hurting me so badly.
You had to lose a damn good thing, cause losing Good Love is just a shame...
I Heard it through the grapevine, that you weren't feeling too fine, so I Hope that you fell much better yes, I do.
I Must say this song and "If you love me" began a work In my Discovery of Me.
I was at this time approaching a second session of "jail-time" to be served by someone that was always at work and never had time to even talk to me because I would only see him between times of his two jobs and my 1 plus half of another.
I was hurt deeply to receive a collect cal from him asking me to go to another person to get his stuff to put on his books... he was fancy huh?
I should have hung up and got up but nooooo I spent another 2 decades of trying to pay him back for hurting me and all that time smothering who I truly be for who I thought he wanted of me... now that's crazy deranged and "out"sane(I'm still trying to adapt that insane means out of the mind when sane is mind-in-control)
okay that's a whole other thing that makes me go, hmmm.
So, while he was away doing his time and flooding my mind, being and existence with his stuff. My stuff turned to seizures as soon as he was released and sent from the State to come live with me for a time they chose to reprimand him but burden me.
Actually that's how I let myself present the case to dive deep into depression and loss of esteem(I'm grateful to Katt Williams for his comedic take on low-self-esteem). Fact of the matter is I was bamboozled, hoodwinked, stupid and sold my soul to a man I thought I could save from himself, but I wasn't even aware that I had lost interest and love for me.
It's an illusion of love to love beyond you. If you're not in love with yourself, it is impossible(Except through JESUS CHRIST) to love outside to anyone else.
I'm a Child of THE KING OF GLORY AND LOVE and It's my duty as a Service to HIM to Testify that love don't hurt nobody. Read the 13Th chapter of 1 Corinthians for a detailed summary of Love and it's Functions. Hurt is not on the list.
The Grapevine we're going to hear from Is 2 Timothy 3:1-9: FATHER PLEASE REMOVE THE scales of ignorance and blinded emotions Concerning love by THE POWER of THE BLOOD OF JESUS CHRIST and THE MIGHT OF THE NAME JESUS.
But Know this, that in the last days perilous(exposed to danger) times will come.
For men/women will be lovers of themselves, lover's of money, boasters, proud, blasphemers, disObedient to Parents, unThankful, unHoly, unLoving, unForgiving, slanderers without self-Control, brutal, despisers of Good, traitors, headstrong, haughty, lovers of pleasure(false pleasure the kind that hurts it it's not fed evil) rather than Lovers of GOD, having a form of GODLIness but denying IT'S POWER(this is Blasphemy-Not PERMITTING THE SPIRIT OF GOD TO OPERATE FREELY CONCERNING you).
Wow, now that's a Real Esteem of Yourself, GOD'S HOLY SPIRIT At Work In You and Through You.
I must interject another Scripture here, Romans 3:19-26;
Now We Know that whatever The Law Says, IT SAYS TO those who are UNDER The Law, that every mouth may be STOPPED, and All the world may Become GUILTY BEFORE GOD.(ooohhh)
Therefore by the deeds of the Law NO flesh will BE JUSTIFIED IN HIS SIGHT, For by The Law is the Knowledge of sin(Not a CURE, having a form of godliness but denying...).
Now back to 2 Timothy 2:,
And From such people Turn Away!(that's a Warning siren woo woo woo)
For of this sort are those who creep(tell it) Into the Households(the unClean 1's) and make captives(that's hostages, prisoners,animals) gullible(easily deceived) women loaded down with sins(sins of past, sins of generations, sins of regrets, depressions, malice, denial, addictions, self-hate), led Away by various lusts, Always Learning and Never Able to Come To THE KNOWLEDGE(That's GOD'S BUSINESS) of TRUTH.
Now That's a Spiritual Whipping(oooowwww)!
GOD CHASTISES HIS OWN(meaning HE BOUGHT you IN but sin unCorrected, will take you OUT). Let's go back to Romans 3:21-26
But Now THE RIGHTEOUSNESS OF GOD APART FROM the Law IS REVEALED, BEING Witnessed by the Law and The Prophets, Even THE RIGHTEOUSNESS OF GOD, THROUGH Faith IN JESUS CHRIST, To All and ON All Who Believe.
For there is No difference since all have sinned and FALL SHORT of THE GLORY OF GOD, Being JUSTIFIED FREELY by HIS GRACE THROUGH the REDEMPTION that IS IN CHRIST JESUS, WHOM GOD SET FORTH AS A PROPITIATION(ransom) BY HIS BLOOD, Through Faith, to DEMONSTRATE HIS RIGHTEOUSNESS because in HIS ForBearance GOD HAD PASSED OVER the sins that WERE PREVIOUSLY committed(by humans, JESUS CHRIST never ever sinned), to DEMONSTRATE at The PResent Time(Right Here, Right Now) HIS RIGHTEOUSNESS, That HE MIGHT BE JUST and THE JUSTIFIER of The One Who Has Faith IN JESUS.
Amen, and Praise GOD for HIS WORD!
Now tell Every agent against the WILL OF GOD in your life, see ya and hope ya do just fine, I've gotta go.
There's a leak in this old building and My Soul Has Got To Move. In JESUS NAME, we out... Way Out!!!