Previously burdened with guilt's, shames & regrets from the ghosts of my past, I've found the complete Joy of Salvation in Freeing my mind from heavy burdens(Romans 8:12-17, 10:05-13 & 12:01-02).
I've experienced the freedom of negativity and the positivity of Trusting & Believing THE LORD IS IN CONTROL(Romans 8:28 & Philippians 04:13).
Haunted by friends, family and co-workers revelations of situations involving conflict, I decided at an early age to be a "loner".
Confusing though was the emptiness felt once saturated with the memories of activities and only remembering nothing.
Harmful was the opinions of those that viewed or gossiped my activities and cursed my future with derogatory statements that perpetuated confusion & suicidal tendencies for a large portion of my life(Proverbs 23:07).
An even greater injustice of sin was the denial & rejection of myself by the prompting of someone just like or wishing to be just like me(James 4:01-10).
As a child we're constantly told, "stop", "don't", "shut-up & sit-down".
Rarely are we informed the consequences that debate these commands.
It takes more than just being able to shout commands to raise a child or instruct a toddler. I mean even babies command feed by hollering with tears.
Learning comes by observation & hearing(Galatians 3:01-14).
Give the command with a loving example of disobeying it.
I'm certain that evil is learned and developed in the mind because when I look back over my life the times that were the darkest were developed without my input(I'd relinquished my authority to some earthling-usaually someone I'd given control of my circumstances or heavenly spirit-materialism disguised as success).
Somehow I was just a bystander to someone Else's circumstance and my situations were birthed from curiosity rather than fact.
I mimicked evil attempting validation to a self-proclaimed family legacy.
Whoever said growing up was not fantasy didn't live in a California family.
I'm recognizing only recent that my past was a list of others mistakes attempted to be relived through me.
I continued a violent spiral up & down the highways of life longing to belong.
Illusions are Pandora's box & Understanding GOD'S MESSAGE OF LIFE is the Key to unlocking MYSTERIES(1 Corinthians 13:01-13).
We complicate things by the visions of ours or someones mind.
It's like a relay race to idiocy transferring negative images & false doctrines to solidify a fantasy derived from a childhood experience gone wrong.
I've been told to resist the urge to do evil. I tried but kept winding up on the opposite side of good which only renders evil.
Yet, my blindness to Reality seduced my mind to believe my wrong was Right.
I stopped growing in education some 33 years ago, therefore all of my adulthood was by the operations of a 15 year old smart Alic perpetrating maturity.
It's depressing to realize your past was lived in a closet of self-destruction & inherited mistakes turned actuality.
If it weren't for the GRACE OF GOD my poor self would still be chasing wind after a losing battle of soldiers past.
Thanks to ALMIGHTY FOR HIS PURPOSE and not mine...
HE HAS GIVEN Me New Life & Transformed my mind into Love & Understanding vs. hate and revenge.
Actually what I was looking for as revenge was actually a prison of the mind to extend the stay of evil that had entered during a grievance or debate(I welcomed the evil rather than Resisting it).
It doesn't take much for evil to be birthed into existence just a little opposition or challenge of Good & fear of unknowns promotes evil which produces sin & death
(Isaiah 59:02 & Romans 06:23).
Repeatedly GOD'S WORD INSTRUCTS Us 2 Watch & Pray-Deuteronomy 02:04, Matthew 24:42, Mark 13:35, Matthew 26:40-41, Mark 14:37-38, Luke 21:36, 1 Corinthians 16:13.
Apparently We should be on alert for temptations & distractions of the enemy to rob GOD OF HIS PRAISE & WORSHIP.
If we are too busy working or worried about affairs then We Are Not Communing with GOD on a Regular basis.
A late night confrontation with evil a few years ago provided Evidence that "if You Resist evil It will flee"(run away)-James 4:07.
Many times it's our egos or pride that graduate temptation to sin because the human tendency to question Good flirsts with doubt and weakens the Will.
We Are Also Instructed to "Keep Our Minds On CHRIST" because if We're Reminded of HIS struggles & Triumphs, We Could tell the enemy of GOOD & GOD to "get behind Us IN JESUS NAME" and avoid his set-ups.
But We're so consumed with favoritism, nepotism & narcisistic personas subconscienciously denying or distracting our True Destiny.
Robbing ourselves the pleasure of being "right" is Humbling Yourself & Permitting GOD'S SPIRIT TO SHINE-Matthew 16:24.
I've taken Charge of My Destiny by Authorizing GOD DAILY TO GOVERN Me & My Activities To Reflect HIM in My Life. It isn't Easy but The Rewards of Joy, Peace & Serenity Are Well Worth the Effort.
Learning what GOD MEANT WHEN HE QUESTIONED JOB, "Where were you when I LAID THE FOUNDATIONS OF THE EARTH? WHO DETERMINES ITS MEASUREMENTS? OR WHO STRETCHED THE LINE UPON IT? TO WHAT WERE ITS FOUNDATIONS FASTENED?"
A list of which Job had no answer and Neither do anyone who has Not Sought THE WILL OF GOD or Studied HIS WORD and Repented of sins to Gain Understanding!
GOD FURTHER QUESTIONS, "Have you Commanded the Morning since your days began, And Caused the Dawn to Know its place That it Might Take Hold of the Ends of the Earth And The wicked Be Shaken Out of It?"(Job 38:04-13)
This Implies that we complain to GOD without EXERCISING the POWER HE ISSUED To Us At CREATION IN THE GARDEN OF EDEN(Genesis 2:).
We go through life with blinders on being led astry FROM GOD'S DESIGN and PURPOSE, until we either become tired of the constant turmoil or are forced by a Life-Threatening experience that proves THERE IS A GOD and HIS LOVE IS COMFORTING, KIND AND PEACEFUL(Philippians 1:09-25).
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